Anxiety is to be stuck in the past and lost in the possibilities of the future.
Depression is to lose all sense of time. It is to be trapped in a darkness not caring what month, day or time it is. The world moves on around you while you are trapped in your own thoughts, in your own mind, in your own unwanted world of darkness.
You are not given the time or opportunity to live in the present, in the now.
It makes you waste away your time worrying and fearing, making you unable to do the things you truly want to do.
Your time is spent merely surviving, not thriving and not truly living.
You constantly dread and worry about the future, the unknown.
You wish for time to speed up so the thing, the situation, you have been dreading is over. But you also wish for time to slow down, for the dreaded to be held off as long as possible.
Mental illness can make time stop in that moment of panic or that moment of pure darkness.
Everything around you can disappear, time can slow as you drown in endless worries and thoughts, as you become lost in your own mind.
Mental illness leads to lost time.
It feels endless, timeless.
It is the past and the future but rarely the present.
It has no sense of time.